Childhood By SnuffyBucket aged 18 Started with a fucked-up childhood that etched into my wit Tears my guts to bloody pieces Just thinking about it Feel him shiver from the waist up when your poison’s on my lips The need to claw into him Craving venom from his hips I started having fucked up nightmares of demons in my bed Your comfort only skin deep Vile snapshots in your head Makes me shudder from the waist down when his limbs tangle with mine Little girl inside is screaming But I can't say ‘no’ this time Grew into a fucked-up teenager living in a shattered home You said you'd never hurt me Now I ache in every bone Tragedy or just a mess - why did you hate me to do Anything that made me better? So I’d want no man, but you Started with a fucked-up childhood and resulting in a fucked-up life They say I’d make a pretty bride But I’d make a shitty wife My hand’s not what he’s asking for - should I be relieved? When I deepthroat his brain Who puts me on my knees? Started with a fucked-up father who skinned away the chance Of developing a meaning That goes beyond my pants No rationale can tell me that I was free from blame To blur the lines of trespass I’ll fuck away the shame